two uteri, two mamas pregnant, AGAIN, with baby number two

Phew December 30, 2007

Filed under: ttc — charlotte @ 11:49 am

Even though it doesn’t make sense I am so fucking relieved to get past 22 1/2 weeks. This is when WTF’s (complicated mama’s) baby died. Although the confluence of events leading up to her delivering a dead baby were complex and totally unrelated to anything we are experiencing, we have half the genetic material of her kids AND I was there for that birth and it was…traumatic, to say the least. So.

I am exhaling a little more as we pass 22 1/2 weeks. I am also remembering Little Charlotte, especially because, I am realizing just as I’m typing this, that our baby will be exactly the same age as LC was when she died, today. She died the day before New Years eve, 2 years ago at 22 1/2 weeks. Our baby is 22 1/2 weeks, today.



8 Responses to “Phew”

  1. Lo Says:

    i hear you. there is a poetry to your little girl’s timing.

  2. Bri Says:

    I am thinking of all of you.

  3. complicatedmama Says:

    she was supposed to be alive. she was alive when the epidural finally kicked in. i was totally expecting to see her come out alive. i was bracing myself for having to watch her die. i was completely not expecting that she would be dead. she wasn’t supposed to be dead. that was the most brutal part of the whole thing of course. there was nothing wrong with her.

    i dont know why i am going off here. i think its because of the reference to the event as when my baby died. i always read that and think “but there was nothing wrong with her.” she was forced out and she most likely died during the delivery.

    does this make sense?

  4. complicatedmama Says:

    it doesnt make sense.

  5. WOW! Just WOW! Hugs all around.

  6. Calliope Says:

    thinking of you, S, WTF & Rocket Man.

  7. meanmama Says:

    WTF, I think what you wrote kind of does make sense.
    Charlotte and all, thinking of you.

  8. meanmama Says:

    ps- meanmama=laGiulia

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