the healthy baby
the baby measuring 7w4d
the baby with a heartbeat of 158 BPM
the alive baby
our alive baby
But. (you knew there had to be a but, right?) There is a subchorionic hemmorage next to the sac, pushing it in in one part (but it could be a vanishing twin). Dr. PSS said clearly, three times (you know I grilled her) that she is not worried about it as long as S is not bleeding vaginally. And it is not crowding the baby, and it does not seem to be in a bad location, whatever that means. She doesn’t feel the need to see us again until 12 weeks (but she will if we need a scan in 2 weeks). I am trying not to focus on the hemorrhage which has grown from last week. I am trying to believe her. Dr. PSS said that it is likely a ‘vanishing twin’, and there is no way to know, but she thinks it will resolve on its own. The sac shape looked good, no teardrop shape, but it was bulged in in a spot from the hemorrhage/vanishing twin. Dr. PSS also said that sex is fine, and orgasms are fine (the thought of my nauseated, ashen, exhausted S wanting to get it on cracks my shit up). I am soooooo not getting laid for years.
The second she found the baby, I knew it was the right size. I can tell, at this point. It looked big, and there was a heartbeat right away. The average heartbeat for 7w4d is 160 BPM, and baby’s was 158. Crown to Ru.mp length averge for 7w4d is 12-13mm, baby’s average measurement was 12.5 (the three measurements she took were, in fact, 13.9mm, 10.6mm and 13.6mm).
Except the hemorrhage/vanishing twin, hence referred to as H/VT, part…can we pretend that this is going to be okay?
Please share H/VT info.
Don’t know what to call it. I’m still scared to give it a name. Even a blog name.
But, can you fucking believe it? An almost textbook ultrasound experience. Lawd knows why we can’t just have a straight up perfect one, but you know, it is us after all. This kid is wily.
Unfortunately she did not give me any of the ultrasound pics that show the H/VT. Please know that I want your honest knowledge and experience with this. I am choosing to believe everything will be okay because I have to (lest I shoot myself), but that will quickly change, I know, after some Dr. Goog.le. So please share the truth. I thought it best to get a positive ‘here is our baby’ post out while I’m still feeling it. Aren’t you proud of me for not completely freaking out (yet)?
**Update: 10 minutes into Dr. Goo.gle and I’m Completely.Freaking.Out.