I am in tears today, again, over bills. The shitty dead baby ultrasound was done at the local hospital because my fucking doctor was not in that day. HENCE, I must now pay $500 dollars for the ultrasound. I cannot describe the suckiness of paying out the ass for this procedure.
Also, have I offended anyone? Just checking. Maybe I am just posting boring ass shit lately (I know it is true). And you know what? It’s all I got. In the past I could come up with other than TTC topics, funny asides, and be more writerly about the whole thing. Right now, you got the worst of me. Grumpy. Depressed. Waiting. Boring. It’s all I got. The rest of my creativity and drive is being put to use surviving, playing with LM, and looking at/paying/organizing/spreadsheeting my fucktastic debt. Oh and the pipe that goes to our septic broke. And there was shit. Literally. And then I had to pay out the ass to have it fixed. See?? This is the non-TTC related going on in my life…I should just stay with to the boring stick talk.
Something interesting and non-depressing better happen soon.