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NOT GOOD **w/ update May 14, 2007

Filed under: ttc — charlotte @ 9:25 pm

Not.fucking.good.

“baby” is measuring 3-5mm, instead of 9-11mm. Do I have that number right?? Likw 10 or 12 mm is normal for 7W5D? The measurement showed up as 6W1D (six weeks one day) instead of what we are which is 7W5D . At first we could not find a heartbeat, but towards the end when Dr. Poor Social Skills changed the angle of the wand, we did see a clear heartbeat more than once. The yolk sac looked fine. Dr. Poor Social Skills was actually very comforting and lovely and did all the right things, but it did not make the news any easier to bear. When pressed she said there is a 50% chance that the fetus will develop normally. This number is not based on any study or anything, it is just what the doctor came up with based on her clinical experience. I don’t know about you all, but I consider this VERY VERY fucking bad news. The measurements are 1 week 5 days behind where they should be…which is terribly significant if you consider that the baby is really only 5 weeks old.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

The doctor told us to come back in a week for another ultrasound. But fuck that. I asked if we can go in on Friday, to the local hospital where hopefully they have better machines, to do another check. I already scheduled it. Is this a good idea? What do you know about measurements and miscarriage? Give it to me straight people. I am not one for sugar coating shit that is this serious. I am already trying to prepare myself. Our baby might die. And that isn’t me being paranoid or pessimistic. Right? It is too small. I think I might puke.

**I just looked at my 8W0D ultrasound pic with LM and he measured 1.55cm, which is 15mm right? This one is 5mm. That just can’t can’t can’t be good. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

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16 Responses to “NOT GOOD **w/ update”

  1. temmerling Says:

    Oh. ohohohohohohoh. I don’t know. I wish I had answers for you but I don’t. I’m holding you and S and LM and that baby in white light in my heart, for all the good that’ll do. I’m hoping HARD that it’s just a fault of machinery or skill in the measuring.

  2. charlotte Says:

    it looked small to us too. granted we are not used to looking at ultrasounds, but it looked small. it is also implanted at the top of the uterus which is fine for the baby, but i wonder if that made it harder to look at accurately. but i think i’m grasping at straws.

  3. lagiulia Says:

    I don’t have any knowledge or advice for you, but I wanted to say I’m sorry about how scared you must be right now. I will be wishing and hoping and praying that everything turns out well at the next u/s.

  4. carey Says:

    Dammit… I am so sorry you guys are having to deal with this. It sucks, I know. It’s a scary feeling.
    A couple of things come to mind –
    (1) I’ve seen measurements vary greatly even when taken during the same visit, it all depends on exactly how the embryo is positioned and where the doctor takes the measurements (with our current pregnancy, the embryo was 5.6mm or 4.4mm depending on the angle at 6.5 weeks) Also, if the embryo implanted in an odd spot, it may be hard to get a good measurement from it too.
    (2) Anything can happen this early in the game – you saw a heartbeat and a yolk sac which are very good things to see.
    (3) You asked for it straight, so here goes… with Steph’s first pregnancy, the embryo always measured behind and she m/c’d at 9.5 weeks. I hate having to share that with you guys. 😦

    I have heard of some catching up, so your doctor’s 50/50 is probably accurate IF the measurement was correct. I would go in on Friday, so much can happen in just a few days.

  5. j Says:

    We are thinking about all of you, and hoping hoping hoping that Dr. PSS just got a not so good look at the baby.

    xo
    J (and S)

  6. Co Says:

    I’m so sorry. So sorry.

    I’m holding you all in the light and hoping that at your next u/s, you get much better news.

  7. Bri Says:

    Fucking fucking fuck. I am so sorry that this is happening and is so fricking scary.

    I don’t have anything scientific to go on but from all that I have seen and heard and read, I am also betting that 50/50 is pretty right on. I have certainly heard of embryos measuring behind but then catching up. And I have certainly heard of the bad outcome, too. The heartbeat is a good start. The smallness is scary. It is another fucking waiting game at this point. This might very well be something where you are going to just have to keep going and going and looking and hoping and ultrasounding until you know one way or the other. This is going to suck for a while. That’s the straight truth. Whatever happens, I know that this is scary as fuck right now and I am sorry and I am thinking of you.

  8. P. Says:

    My second son measured 11 days behind at my 9 week ultrasound. I was scared out of my mind. He “caught up” by the 11 week ultrasound and just turned 4 years old last month. I hope your baby catches up!

  9. nycphoenix Says:

    Praying so hard for all of you.

  10. Bleu Says:

    I just went through this with my pregnancy, and mine ended badly. That said it is not the same for all pregnancies. It is an awful place to be in and I am so sorry. If there is anything I can do let me know.

  11. jp Says:

    I’m so sorry. I think it’s a good idea to go ahead and schedule a second opinion, hopefully in a hospital with better machines and maybe a specialist (or at least a second set of doctor’s eyes). I just went through the same thing about a month ago with my 23 week old baby, and I’m sorry to say it ended in stillbirth. Still, I would advise to go for a second opinion, try not to worry too much, and I’ll keep you both in my thoughts and prayers.

  12. I’m sorry to hear that the baby is measuring behind. As Carey mentioned, we too went through the “baby is too small” hell (it’s worse than beta hell). Since you asked, here are the details.

    Mine was only 4days behind on the first u/s but a week later had fallen 8 days behind and the hb looked slower to us. The RE (not our usual one but one that we had never met and after that refused to ever see again), said everything looked fine. I nearly sat straight up with the wand still in me and yelled “but the baby hasn’t grown in a week”. She still said everything was fine but scheduled me for another u/s to appease me. A week later the baby had grown some and was only 4-5 days behind. A week later the hb stopped and I m/c’d at home the next day at 9w4d. Since you wanted specific measurements here’s what I was able to dig up: At 6w3d 2.6mm on one u/s pic and 2.9mm on another. At 8w3d 10.6mm which is in contrast to my current pg at 8w2d it measured 20.6mm.

    Not to be all unrealistic and blow baby dust up your butt, but when I was going through this last year, there were 2 other women on my online msg board who were in the same predicament and they went on to have healthy babies. I agree that it’s 50/50. You are in our thoughts – good luck on Friday. I hope this info helps.

  13. I’ve had several pgs which measured a week behind, and even though in two cases a hb started, both ended up as missed mcs/d&c and when tested, were chromosomally abnormal.

    But i do know somebody who measured behind and caught up (only her dates were possibly wrong)

    I’ll post you a link to an excellent site, when I’m on my usual PC.

    I’m so sorry. The sinking feeling, the limbo, the desperate search for hope. It’s unbearable, i know.

  14. emmakirsten Says:

    Fuck, I’m so sorry, I am hoping this next u/s shows consistent growth, I think that’s the main thing as long as the growth is consistent.

  15. Calliope Says:

    fuuuuuuuuuuuck!!! oh honey. fuck.
    ok- I refuse to let anything be wrong. I just won’t allow it.
    I am choosing to blame the machine, the Dr., gas…whatever.

    fuck.
    sending so much love to you.
    xoxo

  16. frog Says:

    I have no knowledge, just prayers.


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