two uteri, two mamas pregnant, AGAIN, with baby number two

So April 16, 2007

Filed under: ttc — charlotte @ 11:23 pm

This morning, S peed on a cheapie internet HPT. It was negative. After an hour or so, I checked it again, because, you know, I’m *crazy* (as evidenced HERE). And there was an ever so faintly faint bit of faintness. I already had the pee in a cup (she knows me so well) so I tested again with another cheapie. Nothing. Nothing, that is, in the allotted time. Nothing in 20 minutes. But at 25 minutes, when it was mostly dry, the same faint-squint-under-the-right-light-maybe-it-is-there line appeared. This is the line I have been hoping for. Something to obsess about. Something to take pictures of and post for other insane women to squint at. But in the these 10 months, the HPTs are always, as J says, mocking me with their whiteness.

I called S. I didn’t want to excite her unnecessarily, but I was freaking myself out. I have looked at these fuckers so many times with nothing. I have even tested the same pee 3 times, just to make sure I was not holding the stick in too long, or not long enough. Again, crazy.


This morning I finally I took some pictures of the tests. And emailed them to Calliope, who happened to be online at that exact moment. She verified that there was something there, but at this point, S had not even seen the tests. I emailed them to her. I called WTF, because even if the tests were negative, she could take that ride with me. Love her. Love her. Love her.


I was increasingly believing that the tests were positive, but needed confirmation, and I hate getting my hopes up. I called S, told her per WTF, that she was under strict orders not to drink ANYTHING for the rest of the day.


I picked S up. We went to the drug store. Bought some Answer HPTs. She peed on one.




Fucking pregnant. This test was undeniably, unequivocally, totally, clearly *pinkly* pregnant.


When I called to tell WTF, SHE DIDN’T ANSWER HER PHONE. Eventually we got a hold of her (her 5 year old son was on the phone with a friend when I called). That was a satisfying fucking phone call. Fuck. Fucking fuck. Pregnant.


I must swear, and then swear some more. I have sworn so much over this in the last two years (well August will be two years). Lucky try number 10! I have thought so much about how to make this post. I wanted it to be witty and smart and make everyone cry. I wanted it to be perfect.


Now that I’m here, I just don’t care about any of that. I just want to tell all of you who have cried with me, been jealous with me, been dashed by KDs with me, had to switch gears with me, stared at blank pregnancy tests with me, lost faith with me, regained faith with me, that we are here. Pregnant. Pregnant. Pregnant.

Even if it doesn’t stay that way or something goes terribly wrong. Right now, we are 11 DPO, and pregnant. Two pink lines. Not one. Not blank. Pink. A pink line. My love is having our baby.


55 Responses to “So”

  1. Bri Says:

    HOLY FUCKING SHIT! I had a feeling that if S. had a feeling…

    OH MY GOD!
    I am so happy that you have a second line!

    Yay yay yay!!

  2. Co Says:

    I am so happy for you guys! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  3. Lo Says:

    OMG!!!!!! This is so wonderful!!!! YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!
    And isn’t it weird that the opposite of fuck is, well, FUCK!


  4. e. Says:


    (i’d ONLY say that to you cause i know you will know i MEAN it, and you love to swear so much!)

    love to you, S and the big brother to be!

  5. Bleu Says:

    so happy for you all
    this is just fantastic

  6. lagiulia Says:


    I was SO hoping this would be the one, especially after all that crap you went through with having to lie and shit. Wow. This is great. I am SO so happy for you and S and your son. YAY!

  7. Calliope Says:

    wooooooooooooo hooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!
    so fucking thrilled!!

  8. temmerling Says:



  9. shelli Says:

    Holy shit -! MAZAL FREAKING TOV! 🙂

  10. Amy Says:

    wow, how exciting!! congrats!!

  11. oneofhismoms Says:

    I don’t know you and I am crying! I just knew when you were so stressed out about the lying interview that she would be pregnant and all of that anxiety would just wash away from you. (For about a day, before the pregnancy anxiety sets in!)

    I also have a theory that the more ttc friends I have that get pregnant, the better my odds at this cycle working. (It is superstitious hocus pocus, but it gets me through the two weeks!) So, if I’m pregnant, I’ll send you a thank you note.

    CONGRATULATIONS! And thank you in advance ;)!

  12. Liz Says:

    Lurker delurking to say CONGRATULATIONS! It took us 10 tries too! I’m so happy for you, seeing that pink line is the best feeling. Can’t wait to follow the whole process until baby arrives!

  13. Pronoia Says:

    Woo hoo! Congratulations!

  14. shortydizzle Says:

    That is awesome! Congrats…you deserve it!

  15. Mermaidgrrrl Says:

    Well to me that IS the perfect post! Go girls! Can’t wait for your blood results and stuff now. How exciting!

  16. amanda Says:

    WOW!!!! This is so amazing you guys–how excited! It seems to be going around, and i’m so happy the baby bug bit you!!!

  17. nycphoenix Says:

    HOLY SHIT!!!!



  18. dln Says:

    I wanted to have some heartfelt whitty response to say congratulations, but I’m just sitting here with tears welling in my eyes, not able to manage anything clever or touching whatsoever. I’ve been lurking along through this longfuckingassrollercoaster with you and I’m just so absurdly happy for you!!!! LM is going to be a big brother!!! Horray!

  19. Mama2BandT Says:

    Wonderful-we’re all so happy for you here in my lil’ family!

  20. bianca Says:

    DeLurking to say CONGRATS! Keep peein’…it’ll get darker. Woo-who!!!

  21. Lisa Says:


  22. Rainbowgirl Says:

    Omg!!!! Congrats!!! I am so happy for you two. This is amazing.

  23. whathef*ck Says:

    i LOVE lo’s response about how the oppsoite of fuck is fuck. that explains why i said, “no fucking way.” can’t fucking believe it!! but i can beleive it because its true. cant beleive i missed the callbut so glad i got with you and your pregnant wife a short time later. i hope you are waiting on her right now and bringing her some tasty treats and marveling over her state of pregnantness. somebody needs to take care of you too since you have a pregnant wife. holy mother of god. what else to say? i’m thrilled for you guys and so happy to be part of this wild adventure. what a story you’ll have to tell the kids, already.

    call me tomorrow so we can have that”your wife is pregnant, christams isnt a great bday but who fucking cares, you could do a goodhalf-bday every year and what a good problem to have and holy shit was it m’s room or the drive-by and how could a five-year-old have been on a call when i missed your call and how crazy are you staring at 3 hour old tests and what great timing now with no labs, lying iuis, etc and how will rm get any tf’in action now that s is knocked up.”

    you have to come visit us at least every two months for a while, if not more often. its been so nice seeing you all so frequently. holy fuck. your wife is pregnant. suddenly, everything is different. better. yippee. sweet dreams. love to you both and big brother and baby blastocyst. go baby, go!

  24. carey Says:

    Holy crap… what great news!!!!

  25. You hadn’t posted your update last night before I went to bed here in London, and checking your blog is the first thing I’m doing this morning.

    What brilliant news! Enjoy!


  26. tonya cinnamon Says:

    holy shite!!!!!!!
    OMG IM SOOOOOO HAPPY ^_______^
    hugs to you all!!!!

  27. vee Says:

    Many congratulations to S and to you.
    Not before time. I’m glad S doesn’t have to go through the lying thing.
    Here’s to a happy healty 9 months.

  28. Jude Says:

    Big effing congratulations to the 2.5 of you from the 2.5 of us!

    Welcome to the wild ride, and a happy and healthy 9 months to all of you!


  29. j Says:

    Right on.

    Congrats guys:)

  30. indymel Says:

    HOLY CRAP!!!

    CONGRATULATIONS! Can’t wait to hear how your beta goes!

  31. Beth Anne Says:

    I’m so happy for your whole family! LM is going to be a big brother! Yay!

  32. maeby Says:

    Coming late to the party due to some North East power outtages but HOLY SHIT! CONGRATS to both of you – with any luck, the hard part is behind you!

  33. Liza Says:


  34. barbara Says:

    I am so happy for you two! Congrats!

  35. ohchicken Says:

    sosososoososososososoo exciting.
    congratulations. hugs. yay!

  36. I am so hapy for you ladies! I am crying for you at work. Please accept my most sincere congrats and have a happy and healthy 9 months! You ladies deserve this. Much love!!

  37. Sara Says:

    YIPPEEEEEE!!! I am so very happy for you!!!! Congratulations!!!

  38. Estelle Says:

    Yay! What great news! Congrats girls!

  39. worldofwinks Says:

    Your post was perfect, and still managed to make us cry! Congrats!

  40. Hope Says:


  41. emmakirsten Says:

    Awwww, I am so happy for both of you, and LM of course, I have been following your story since you first started your blog, CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

  42. Kim Says:

    Wow. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! You two are pregnant! I’m so happy for you and S!

  43. hollykr1976 Says:

    OMG ! ! ! !

  44. This is great news!!! I’m so excited for you girls. I’m sure you’re as obsessive as I am (ok, really that’s a huge assumption b/c when it comes to ttc, I’m neurotic) but have you continued to POAS? I pee on everything that even resembles a stick for the first week. Are you going for blood work? What’s the next step. I’m so excited for you girls!

  45. AmandaJ Says:

    Awesome! I have been waiting for this post! So excited for you guys!

  46. Mo Says:

    This is so freakin’ great!! Congratulations!!

  47. G Says:

    Delurking to say.. Congratulations!

  48. Woo Hoo!!!!

    Sending you buckets of congrats!!!!

  49. M. Says:

    This is the best news EVER! Congrats mamas, you done good.

  50. Sacha Says:

    Sorry it’s taken me so long to get over here. M. told me the AMAZING news. I’m so glad you gals are finally preggo. It’s so exciting. Congrats, congrats, congrats!

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