two uteri, two mamas pregnant, AGAIN, with baby number two

a bit better February 7, 2007

Filed under: Uncategorized — charlotte @ 4:39 am

S and I talked. I expressed some of my anger and disappointment at yet another thing that I pinned hope on and expected getting yanked away at the last minute. She is going to start taking charge of her own fertility treatments, which is great. I’m still sad and feeling quite hopeless about our next try (in a week) but whatever dude.

I’m kinda used to the crushing of the small amounts of hope I muster. Ah, well, it is what it is. I have never (save childhood) felt so out of control, powerless and hopeless as I have in this process.


4 Responses to “a bit better”

  1. Co Says:

    Glad you’re feeling a bit better. This whole thing sucks.

  2. Calliope Says:

    all of this just makes me so much more sad about UD & the H.
    You have had way too many rugs pulled out from under you. As a control freak – this would FREAK my shit out.
    Is there anything that can give you a sense of order? even if it is temporary?

    I think I officially just gave “assvice” – sorry. I just know how fucked up lame it is to not be in control.

  3. Says:

    Big virtual hugs, and support. It all kinda…blows big chunks, and Cali is right – the not being in control is SO hard. Thinking of you.

  4. Says:

    It sucks like a giant sucking vat of suckitude when your partner does something you can’t understand and that makes you feel like that. I am glad you got to talk and I am sorry for this whole thing.

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