We are going to try use my uterus.
If S decides during or after this pregnancy that she absolutely wants/needs to do it, we will try for a third child at some point before she turns 40.
I’m feeling all cried out and strange, so I don’t really know what to write. I asked S if she would write about our decision, so I hope she will write something tomorrow that I can post. I want you to hear from her about this.
Like any decision, this is not set in stone, but we have definitely made a choice. We may change our minds. S wants us to think about taking this month off altogether. I will do it if it is what is best for S, for us.
I am trusting that this is the right choice, despite a huge wave of sadness that has descended upon me. Trista emailed me with some questions and thoughts which I want to respond to here at some point. I am happy to answer any questions you internets have as well.
To Rocket Man and Whatthef*ck – We will never be able to express our gratitude to you both. Really. May you have many blessing in this life and the next for your gracious and generous gift. And we may ask you again in a month (or two years) if you are willing to give it another try with us. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
Truly I am just out of sorts and numb. It is past midnight I’m too sad and exhausted to write more. I will try to post something tomorrow when my wits have returned.
And thank you again, all of you who I know and don’t know, for being with us during this journey.
I realized just now that my very first post ever was in January, one year ago. Hmm.