Three insems. Gift of porn was appreciated. I am sick, LM is sick and I am completely exhausted. I was going to leave it there, but I’ll give y’all an update.
S and I discussed, again, the possibility of me having the next baby. It is becoming a more real possiblity, but one we don’t really want. Mostly. Whatever. It is complicated.
Additionally, I am incredibly tired, sick and a bit nauseated today…this makes me even more sure that I don’t ever *want* to go again. I will, but pregnancy, at least for me, was a giant me being very fat with a painful pulled groin muscle, eating everything in sight, unable to lie own, sick and exhausted all the time festival of whining and having hormonal meltdowns. I don’t get chicks who feel the running throgh the field of fertile wildflowers bit. It took me a while to not *want* this anymore (seriously, what was I thinking? I don’t do well with pregnancy), but I’m finally here. I would be willing to. Willing.
I don’t know if S or I can give up the possibility of her ever being pregnant or giving birth. It makes me very sad. But we have been thinking lately how lovely it would be to have a full sibling for LM. It is complicated. Messy business, but somehow, miraculously, she and I are on the same page. This page happens to be we don’t know what the f*ck we are going to do, but we are doing it together.
Oh did I mention that S’s period is due on New Years day?
What a lovely New Year’s eve that will be.
Yeah, happy f*cking new year to us…it didn’t work again, chumps.
Oh wait, aren’t the first few days after inseminations supposed to be filled with hope and wonderment?