We have chosen a KD route that is not only complicated because it is a known person, but we have chosen someone close to us, which further complicates everything. We know this.
Initially we did not want to use someone close to us, for the very reasons which we are experiencing now. Jealousy. Hurt feelings. Weirdness.
So why are we not pulling out (ha ha)? Why don’t we just walk away?
An intense sense of connection and rightness remain.
And he is a f*cking great donor. Perfect health, charming, great looking, warm, kind, the most incredible voice I have ever heard (seriously), generous, smart as a whip, hysterically funny, emotionally mature (although he sometimes has trouble anticipating other people’s needs, eh hem). But if you tell him what you need, he is RIGHT there.
Unfortunately we still feel that he is the right person, or believe me we would walk. Leaving is definitely still an option for us though. If The Wife does not get her act together, and become very clear and okay with everything, we are gone.
We just don’t know how long we are willing to wait. I can be patient. Hah. I mean I will try to become a different person so I can muster an two millimeters of patience.
I desperately hope that very soon I will write a post about the restoration of order and happiness in our village.
Oh, and in a shout out to Sacha at Babycakes: I made KD some heart shaped chocolate chip banana bread muffins, and sent them off to work with S.
HUGE success. If I had done it when I had a crush on him he may have loved me back. So bake away for BF. Absolutely.