two uteri, two mamas pregnant, AGAIN, with baby number two

Nervous as Hell March 14, 2006

Filed under: Uncategorized — charlotte @ 11:14 pm

Thus far I have not been incredibly nervous. But I am now. They are coming in 3 hours.
3 hours! I feel like I have been waiting forever.

And this is our only chance to hang out while she is in town (she leaves in 4 or 5 days). SO THIS IS IT. We all talk, then they talk to each other alone. Then we get an answer. Maybe in a few days, maybe in a week. I can hardly stand it.

I want to make a good impression, but I want to be myself. I am just starting to get scared that she will say no. She has every right and every reason to say no. I would be possessive if S. had swimmers. And I hate decisions that are totally out of my control.

I am just tired, literally and emotionally. I want to know. I hate the waiting. I am beginning to freak out a little. Just a little, but I fear that if it opens up a just a crack the dam will burst.

Here’s to holding it together.


One Response to “Nervous as Hell”

  1. Sacha Says:

    I say make her some delicious dessert that will knock her socks off sooooo far that she’ll never be able to say ‘no’ and will be in love with you forever and ever and ever. But that’s me, I think everything can be fixed with food. 🙂

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