I need some lesbian help.
None of my straight friends (that’s right we have NO lesbian friends with babies!) can understand my feelings. S. is going to have the baby this time and I AM JEALOUS. I am afraid that I won’t love the baby as much, I am afraid that I will be REALLY sad not to be the ‘booby-mama’ meaning I won’t be breastfeeding.
I know that it is crazy to think I will love the second baby less, especially one that S. (who I love more than life) gives birth to. But there is this weird situation when both of you can give birth. No precedent, really. No reflection in the media. No cultural support.
So help me queer mamas and mamas to be, how are you guys dealing with these issues? I feel like I want to be honest with myself and others about these fears so I can deal with them before the baby comes.